PostSecret
I started saving secrets again.
I figure I might finally have a roommate who wouldn’t mind me plastering the walls with them. I realize that having a million strangers secrets plastered upon my walls might be a tad creepy, however I really enjoy the feeling that postsecret prompts. Somehow knowing that everyone else has secrets too makes me feel closer to humanity. I think has something to do with the fact that all of these people also are leading lives that don’t allow them to express their innermost selves, they too feel it necessary to hide some of there soul, be it beautiful, shameful, artistic, vain – or for whatever their personal reasons for anonymity are, the knowledge that others have the same need that I do (or why else would I have a secret blog) make me feel more in touch with humanity. As if I belong to the human race because no matter how different we may appear on the surface this anonymous outlet allows us to unite without restraints of social class, race, gender, appearance, age, career, level of intelligence or any of the other social restrictions we face in otherwise. It brings out something beautiful in my soul and whether or not the secret is dark, perverted, silly, devastating, embarrassing or any of the other categories some of them fall under, the fact that someone owns this secret and was brave enough to share it makes me feel as if I have connected with a stranger on some deep emotional level. Thus far in my life, I have not discovered anything else to incite anything quite like it – other than when I read novels. But characters in books are not real and therefore it just makes me long for a company I can never have. This is something real I can relate to.
I want to conduct an experiment. As time goes on and I make an effort to read more and continue writing, I hope to see an improvement in my grammar, spelling, voice and organization. But especially my vocabulary. We’ll see how where I am in sixth months. Hopefully by that point I’ll be able to look back and be able to identify noticeable improvement.
When I get the time, which won’t be anytime soon, I would like to play around on WordPress and organize my pages. I would like to start three separate for my journal, my writing, and a prayer page- parts of which I’m sure I’ll keep private. But it is my own way of trying to grow closer in my relationship with God while not attending a church. Otherwise I feel I will fall away from Him completely.
